I was so comfortable with Mike that it’s all so different with Randy. I forgot all about the new relationship stuff, the little things you get used to that the new person isn’t doing because they don’t know. They don’t know what irritates you or makes you smile. The small things that will just warrant instant pissed off mode. I’m trying to be patient and .. I really hope the end result is worth it. I really care about Randy. So incredibly much that it hurts. I miss him when he’s gone. He’s kinda scared we’ll spend too MUCH time together, but I’m trying to assure him it won’t happen. Especially once I start going back to school. I’ll be at school from like 10-5 for school and then work whenever it fits into my schedule. We’re going to be fine.. and we’ve got some growing pains to get through but I really think we can do it.

I also had Mike come over. Him and Randy got along surprisingly well actually. They talked, I didn’t really sense a whole lot of tension but Mike obviously felt out of place. It was good though, I really think we’re going to be able to remain friends and I didn’t have the urge to be all over him or anything, feelings didn’t come flooding back to me when I saw him. I really am beginning to see him as a friend and only that, because I’m reminded of the stuff he did that pushed me away from him when I see him. I think it’s a good thing, I just hope he can move on and we can remain friends. I like having him there to lean on when I need a shoulder.

They both spent the night. Randy with me and Mike on the couch but … again, it worked out fine. I didn’t drink really at all last night, I threw a splash of vodka in my iced tea but all I got was a little warm feeling. Nothing intense at all, I don’t need alcohol to have a good time. It comes from watching my dad get trashed all the time. I’m gonna stop rambling though, Happy 2007 everyone!