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Well the verdict is in. He’s got 2 more weeks in jail (till the 1st) in which he has another court appearance but they’re working on moving him into a rehab for a month and then a halfway house for 6 months as the most likely thing. His lawyer’s looking into finding a place for him, he might end up being like an hour and up to 2 hrs away but visitation is for 5 hours on Sundays so it’d be worth it to drive there.

Overall, not the best but we’ll have to make it work. I love him, that’s all there is to it.

Oh, and I got put on Depakote for my recent seizure that I had. Not only that, it’s supposed to help with bipolarism AND prevent migraines. 3 birds… 1 drug. I’ve also been told though that it’s likely I’m going to gain weight. UGH… NO.

Well I’m a copycat and had to mirror Lisa so I bought a Nintendo Wii. Actually, I’ve been wanting one and hearing about the lovely awesome addicting Rayman made me want it even more so my mom’s friend called at 8:45 last night to inform me that there were 3 wiis left at K-Mart and since in my town Walmart >>>>>>>> KMart no one goes there and knows that they had wiis in stock. So I run (after my bubble bath which was heavenly btw), into my brother’s room wearing my jeans and bra and tell him to hurry up and get ready we’re making a run to K-Mart to get the wii. So we get into my car when it’s FREEZING (single digits man) and begin driving without crashing (GO MANDA). We run into the store and lo and behold, still 3 wiis available so we ask super grouchy old salesman who looks like he’s going to call the cops on us for theft which isn’t occurring to open and get one out. Then he gets pissy with me because I don’t buy his warranty and says if I invest in a $300 system I ought to ensure it’ll work more than 90 days. I tell him I trust Nintendo and if my $300 system breaks I’ll eat the costs. Stupid asshole. He got on my nerves.

Since K-Mart’s game selection was 0-nill we went over to wally world where they didn’t have the extra wiimotes (They did at Kmart but stupid electronics idiot pissed me off and I forgot to ask for an extra) so I went and got Rayman but they had no Zelda so it’s the only game we got. After much screaming in my car and excitement I went home and didn’t play.

I actually was too busy talking to Randy on the phone for an hour (W00t for $5.40+1.60 access charge). *dies* Then I was surfing the net and just doing stupid shit. I then wrote a 6 page letter to my lover boy, ’twas fun, but I didn’t sleep until like 2:00am. I’m a smart one. I was very tired this morning obviously and still am, but this way I’ll be able to pass out without laying in bed for eons. Gotta look on the bright side I spose.

As for Randy, his court appearance was canceled I think due to his lawyer not having everything he needed and it got pushed back to tomorrow at 11:00am, which I can’t attend b/c I’m in class from 9:30-10:50 and then working from 11-1 since I can’t go 40 miles in 10 minutes. It’s driving me nuts, I just want to know WHAT is going to happen to him and what the heck we’re facing together. If everything goes MY way he’ll be out tomorrow and I’ll come home to him but we all know things can’t be that easy. I’m gonna be a nervous wreck the entire time, I swear. Pat’s gonna call me and tell me what happens though, so at least THAT looks positive for me.

Look for another post tomorrow… maybe. If he’s out there’ll be lots and lots of cuddle time with him and stuff but otherwise I’m probably going to do a rundown of my 7 classes (oh boy). This should prove to be a very interesting semester.

I hate being in my situation in life. Really, it’s not fun whatsoever. I swear.

Randy is in jail because he’s an ex-alcoholic who stole a 4 wheeler and had a grand larceny charge during the summer. He was sent to rehab, he took off from there and got married to Carrie in October. They were together about a month before getting married, then were together for about 2 months, and in November he told her to get the hell out of his life. She still wants to be with him. She found out we were together so his aunt started drama and told her that him and I were sleeping together and I was 16 (wtf) and since he’s 23… evidently illegal. I’m 19 so that wasn’t illegal but he did have a warrant out for his arrest for leaving the halfway house for Carrie (as a violation of probation) and THAT is why he’s in jail right now. His lawyer is saying 6 months max and if he gets that he should get out after 4, on basis of good behavior but I’m not keeping my hopes up anywhere. We’ll see Tuesday at 2:00PM what the judge says his fate should be. I’m crossing my fingers for weekends and extended probation. We’ll see though…

On that note, Mike stayed the night last night due to bad weather and we ended up sleeping (as in SLEEPING, not sex) together again, which obviously pissed off Randy and I have a conscience and can’t not tell him. So Mike and I can’t see each other again, not without Randy around anyways. Things may seem controlling but I’m vulnerable and I didn’t refuse Mike’s advances to cuddle and keep me company all night long so… it’s for the best. Not to mention it’s killing Mike every time, I keep sending mixed signals. Telling him no chance but begging him not to leave me alone at night is going to confuse someone.

So Randy took it surprisingly well when I told him and he told me this was my chance, I made my mistake and now he’s going to give me a shot to prove to him that I can be trusted. I’m not screwing this up. Mike and I didn’t even kiss but I feel awful, because I’m supposed to be faithful to Randy and here I was cuddling up with my ex all night long because I’m weak. *shakes head* What’s wrong with me?

On a side note, is it Tuesday yet? School starts and I find out what the hell happens between us. Then maybe my mind will be at ease and occupied too, no time to be idle when I’ve got 7 classes ya know? My online class is going to be miles high of homework I already have seen the syllabus and damn.. but I’m looking forward to it. I want school to start back up, it’s a good mind domination.

Update time. I think it’s been like 3.. maybe 4? days since I’ve updated. Unfortunately, nothing has really happened worth blogging about but I’m sure I can scrounge up something. I’ve been bumming around the house a lot just doing absolutely nothing. I don’t get to see Randy again until Monday, which is very pooey actually. He has court on Tuesday where we find out what’s happening to him, hopefully he gets out on probation but I’m not getting my hopes up too high otherwise they’ll get shot back down when I hear he’s stuck in there for any long amount of time. We’ve been talking twice a day though, he wakes me up in the morning and then he talks to me before he goes to sleep too. If he’s in there for awhile we’re gonna cut it down to like twice a week.. because the phone bill is going to hit multiple hundreds if we don’t and I really can’t afford that to be honest. *sigh*

I bought my textbooks for next semester. On half.com they amounted to $246.01 which isn’t bad in comparison to what the book store charges. I’ve also paid the electric bill that’s through the roof so overall I think I’m not doing too shabby at all. I have to pay off the cable which is only like $40 or something and then the gas bill, which is $340 so I think I’ll have to make payments on that one. I don’t just have that much money laying around at my disposal. I do have over $2,000 in my account but… yeah. Some of that goes towards insurance and I get another $2100 next month, not too shabby. Randy keeps telling me to buy myself something but I have no desire, I just want him here with me and otherwise that money can just sit and accumulate for all I care. *shrug*

I’m basically lounging around a lot until I start school back up on Tuesday. I’ve only got one class that day, so it’ll be a quick and go deal. I also bought my $80 E-Z pass so I don’t have to worry about tolls every freakin’ day. W00t, go Manda for saving money in every way possible.

I have a feeling this post is going to be jumping from random topic to random topic. We’ll see right yo?

Randy’s court date was yesterday and as imagined, it was postponed till next Tuesday at 2:00PM. I cannot go, as I will be in Buffalo. I have class from 9-11 and then work 4-10. So I have to mess around for 5 hours.. doing god knows what. I really am contemplating giving those hours up not because I wanna go to the courthouse but because I really don’t want to wait 5 hours.. for 6 hours. You understand my drift right? I think I’m gonna try to just give them up, it’s only $60 and I just.. who the heck wants to sit on campus on the first day with nothing to do? What the hey is my scheduler thinking? Yes, I’ve determined I’m not doing that. It’s just insane.

Oh, and speaking of Randy because no post is complete in this new relationship without mentioning him, the judge said there’s no way he’s going to prison. He’s only 23 and he said he deserves another chance so his public defender is pushing for 6 months max and 5 years probation. If so, he should get out after 4 if he has good behavior. Since he “works” for his dad too if the judge wants to be nice he’ll give him either a month, 3 months, or weekends if we get orgasmic ally lucky. We’ll find out on Tuesday, and since I’m now giving my shifts up I should be able to attend and see what’s going on with my baby boy. He’s now able to successfully call my house without stupid error messages, so I don’t get my hopes up and then shot down when I don’t hear his oh so soothing voice. I got to see him yesterday too, all shackled up in that grungy orange and white but really never will be white again teeshirt. Ick ick ick. I’m sure when he gets out he’ll take the longest shower of his life. I see him tomorrow too, we actually have an hour. We’re trying to do every other day, since he gets 2 hrs a week but you can split it into 4 so that way I can see him every other day if I try. I’m feeling a lot more positive about being able to do this. I just hate to see my $1.67 + $.09/minute phone bills… he’s called and we’ve talked 3 hours yesterday. He also got disconnected twice, so that’s $3.40 right there. *dies* WALLLLLLLLLEEEEET SAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

People in financial aid irk me. They say payments go out 10 days before classes. That would be Saturday the 6th. No moolah in my bank account. I check daily, still check today, and nothing! So I’m irritated, because everyday I watch and the book prices rise and it’s costing me more and more money. *sigh* Hopefully it’s in by Thursday. Then I can go play catchup with my bills and a huge weight will be lifted from my shoulders. I look forward to that very much so. I’m not looking forward to spending another 4 hours at work though. I only got like 5 hours of sleep, if that, and it was restless. I want it to be 9:00pm so my baby can call and we can talk.. then go sleep so at 3:00pm on Wednesday I can go see him and hug/kiss him even if it is lasts a whopping 5 seconds. He’s so cute.