Well I suppose I can update, it has been like a week or so. Somewhere in that range right? No clue. I should have been visiting Randy today but of course that didn’t happen because things NEVER happen the way you want them to when you’re involved in “the system”. He was told in court on Thursday his sentancing is pushed back 5 weeks so he goes back in 5 weeks, but it will take “up to a week and a half” for him to be moved to hope haven. That’s how they’re doing it. Once he is finished with hope haven the judge will push it back 6 months and he’ll go to a halfway house and then he’ll get time served + 5 years probation. It’s been 4 days after today since then so I’m crossing my fingers he gets moved next week for both the collect calling bill ($234 for 2 weeks), and because when he goes to HH I can visit him for 3 hours every sunday and we actually aren’t monitored so *censored* You can use your imagination. Most of all I just want to cuddle with him and we can do that in his room, I miss laying my head on his chest. *sigh sigh* Next weekend I keep telling myself, now if I don’t let myself get my hopes up again I’ll be fine. I did this time and when I found out he wasn’t being moved I flipped out and broke down. It sucked. However, in the greater scheme of things I’m doing a lot better. Not crying all the time and moping about. I’m just *dealing* with things like they need to be and thinking of how it’s all going to be worth it when he gets out. He just makes me feel.. like no one ever has. I never felt this way with Mike.
Otherwise things have been alright. I’ve been doing schoolwork in spurts. I have 2 exams on Friday and then one next Monday which works out nicely because next weekend can be dedicated to doing that and the other two classes will be taken care of temporarily. I’m doing what I need to. I got a 98 on my first history essay for the semester, too bad it was only worth 5% of my grade though. :’( I like my classes, they’re interesting but I hate the drive up and back everyday. I wish there was a way to make 35 miles of the same route go by a lot faster than it does. *sigh* Oh well. Only 3 (a little under) months left and then I’m halfway done with college for good. I’m not going for a master’s degree, no way. I’m sick of school, I’ve been going since I was 4 with no break and I know if i take a break I won’t go back so I’m just forcing myself through all of it. That and I’d lose my job and don’t want to end up working in a job I hate and scrounging to get by all the time.
As for the dieting/weightloss thing I’ve determined I’m not ready to give up pop yet and it’s hard to diet when your mom just got her tax returns and has been keeping junk like there’s no tomorrow in the house especially when you have big superbowl parties and stuff. So for now I’m going to just do what I’ve been doing, maybe portion control for now and I’m still intending on a treadmill in 2 weeks when I get my money and my mini fridge, then I’ll look into it. It’s also a lot easier to start when the weather is nice because I’m outside a LOT more doing things like biking, volleyball, etc… so I’ll do it when I’m ready and until then just be me because Randy loves me, no matter what I look like. It’ll also be a lot easier when he gets into a halfway house because we’re going to begin biking together, it’s one of his passions and I want to get into it. Great exercise too and lots of fun so I’m pretty excited for that.
Time to go read in my comm book a bit and then get ready for the superbowl. GO COLTS!!
Amanda. 20 years old. Owner of 2 spoiled dogs. Lives in western NY. Madly in love with her fiance Randy. Studied 2 years at college for informatics and will continue sometime in the near future. Opinionated, sensitive, emotional, loyal, dedicated. 
I picked this one b/c for some reason it makes me think of Napoleon Dynamite. Rofl. 
