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Many people look online for love from their own countries as well as from others, especially Eastern European such as Ukraine or even Russia. Obviously it’s useful to get to know someone first before committing to dating them or even agreeing to marry them as well. In the case that a guy is looking for a wife from Russia they can get involved in a Russian Girls Chat to try and connect with someone who is looking for what they are and can click with. I personally like to keep my cultural ties close by and find people who are similar to me but I support whatever makes someone happy.

Well yesterday after getting my earnings from smorty in my paypal of $43 John sent me a link to a cheap but good power supply for my custom PC that I want for only $30 so I had to get it b/c the one I was looking at previously was $52 itself. You can see it here. It’s 550W and will work perfectly for my new computer. Now I’m down to needing a processor, video card, DVD drive, RAM, and a case along with some thermal paste too. Not too bad I don’t think. It comes to roughly $300 for the rest of it. I’m excited to have it so I can play some newer games on it, maybe keep my mind a bit more occupied now that I’ve got this whole thing dropped on my back now.

I haven’t seen daylight in 3 days since I’ve been sleeping during the day and staying awake during the night. I liked that routine, having time alone at night without my brothers being awake and the night time has a different feel to it that I can’t quite pinpoint. Now though, I’m not so certain I’ll be feeling that way since I’ve lost my other half. However, in the summer time it’s also a lot more comfortable to be awake during the night due to heat problems in the day time. There are a lot of different things to do like sit around a bonfire, camp out, and even look through telescopes to see what the naked eye can’t off in far distances. You can find them along with sunglasses, binoculars, and flashlights at opticsplanet.com and they even offer free shipping too!

He’s gone. I’m scared… very very scared of the unknown which is my future right now. I love him and I love him so much that it physically hurts me just thinking about him being gone. They came to the house at about 6:30pm and my dad hollered up to our little cove up here and said “Someone’s here to see you” and down he went. I peeked down and he’s got his hands behind his back, a cop in front and one to the side, and they’re giving him a Breathalyzer. I decided this time I wasn’t letting him go without saying goodbye so I jumped down too and asked if I could hug him, they told me once they had him cuffed up i could. I got his shoes and sweatshirt for him, hugged and kissed him one last time and he told me he loved me with tears in his eyes and I told him I loved him too but by now I had tears streaming down my face because we all knew this was coming. The cops were nice and told me he’d be at the sheriff’s office and he’d be able to call me tomorrow… or something like that but it’s not the point.

Where does he go from here is the scary part. He said he was facing 3-7 in prison but I’m unsure… I really am because he tends to look at the pessimistic side on the whole deal of everything like when he was trying to get his sneakers on handcuffed they asked him if he wanted his socks and he goes “What’s the point? I’m going to prison” but seeing him with tears in his eyes as he stared at me… I tried to hold back from crying and couldn’t because I knew if he saw me he’d hurt because he knows he’s what’s causing it.

I don’t blame him and I’m not angry with him for all of this. He made bad choices in the past and now they’re finally coming to catch up with him and he’s got to take care of everything before we can work on our life together. It still makes it hard. It’s ironic… last night I was hugging him and I snuggled into his shoulder and whispered “Marry me” and he said “I would if I could” and I responded with “If you weren’t right now I would just to show you that I want to be with you forever, prison or not because I love you and want you to be mine forever even if you don’t believe me” and he smiled and told me he did believe me. Updates will follow..they’ll probably be the only thing I write about now.

The hardest part of all of this now is that I’m alone. I’m really alone. Pat and Heather don’t come around anymore and Randy and I were all each other basically had. Now that he’s gone… what do I do? Everything I did daily revolved around spending time with him, doing things with him. He’s going to be there for our first anniversary… Christmas… everything. All he wanted was to make it through both of those before he got turned in but obviously it wasn’t in the cards.

I’m going to fall and it’s going to be hard and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to pick the pieces up after the break. It’s …………………. I don’t know anymore.

As most of you know Randy and I picked up one night without any notice, threw some crap in a couple boxes, and took off for West Virginia in my SUV. It was a long trip where we ran out of gas and he had to walk 5 miles to get some. We had almost no room and it was not very pleasant. The next time I even think of picking up and Moving somewhere I’m going to look into using movers to make the experience a bit easier and more pleasant. You can search online to find reviews and compare prices and packages. There’s a whole slew of things to consider when choosing a company. I know personally I’d choose one who had good reviews since that shows what a company is all about in comparison with the price range and services offered.