Edit: Called Elmira and he was moved this morning. I checked the DOC website and he’s in Lakeview now. I’m just hoping I get a phone call… :(

Well today was a tad bit more eventful than the past couple days. I invited Hope over yesterday and we got to catch up a bit. I hadn’t talked to her since… March? It’ll be nice to stay in touch with her now. I was unable to sleep last night due to being anxious over… no idea. My mind wouldn’t stop racing around jumping from subject to subject. I went to bed at 7:30am and had to get up at 10:30 for my neurologist appointment.

That went well. It took a whole 2 minutes for him to say yeah your medicine is working OK you’re fine see you in 6 months. At least I only waited 2 minutes to get in. I like small practices. Then Hope and I went to McDonald’s and ate some lunch before I took her home. Now I’m home. I called a psychiatrist and made an appointment to hopefully get on something to help me with this anxiety all the time and my mood swings.. holy mood swing mania is all I can say. One minute I’m giggling the next I’m bawling my eyes out. I really need something to help me sleep though. Waking up 3073 times and tossing/turning makes for a miserable night… if I’m even able to fall asleep. Luckily I can get in right tomorrow.

Errr, still no word from Randya and it’s 2:16. The DOC says he’s still in Elmira but it can take a couple days to update itself. If it’s not updated or I don’t hear anything by tomorrow I’m calling Elmira again and telling them I was intending on visiting Saturday, they’ll let me know what’s up with that but he told me they were sending a bunch out on Wednesday. Maybe today was his day… I’m relatively calm but it lingers in the back of my mind.

We have horrid winds today. Our mailbox blew over, there is aluminum from the barn next to us that blew off and ended up in our driveway with nails sticking up, power lines down in a few places, tree branches everywhere. We’re getting gusts of like 35-50mph. It’s nice temperature wise but with that wind, brrrrr. I feel bad for my dad having to be out in it all day, such is the life of a farmer though. Oh… and under the read more is a poem type thing a friend sent me and it is SO true.

A Test Of Fate

Listen to my words,
for they come from my heart.
I will never give up on you,
I have loved you from the start.
We have overcome so many trials,
and it has been a test of fate.
I know exactly where I belong.
and it is with you my Soul mate.
God has separated us now,
but only for a while.
Until we can conquer this
one last test and trial.
We truly belong together,
and this I am sure.
We have had so many ups and downs
that only our love could endure.
I love you so much sweetheart,
and I offer you my life.
one day we will unite,
as we become husband and wife.
Our souls have intertwined
to become as one,
and we will be together
when all is said and done.
So my love keep these words
right next to your heart.
For if you truly believe in us,
we will never be apart.
Close your eyes and envision
the biggest and brightest star,
and know in your heart
I will always love you,
even from afar.