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I’ve grown up around guys mainly for the duration of my childhood. My closest friend/cousin is a year younger and male, I have 2 younger brothers as well so I’ve always been into the more rugged side of myself. I don’t do makeup, cheer leading, anything that can be termed as “girly” but instead don’t mind getting down and dirty to have some fun. One thing I know a lot of people get into but I haven’t quite explored yet is paintball. First off, I have horrible aim so I’d probably be getting hit constantly and then it leads to the fact that I’m a bit scared of the pain factor, I heard it can be pretty harsh to get hit with a spyder vs1 or any paintball gun while playing paintball with some friends or even being involved in a paintball tournament. I do know that people I associate with and that do play paintball have an absolute blast with it and really get into it by buying all sorts of paintball gear. Who knows, one day maybe I will explore it a bit and it might become a hobby of mine.

Good News: He’s still at LakeView and still able to get a visit from 9-3 tomorrow

Unsure news: IDK if Randy’s mom is intending on going tomorrow and I don’t have a reliable vehicle to go and see him.

Provided I get there, 21 more hours. Woooooooooo!

I also haven’t cried since I saw him Saturday, I wonder does this mean I’m getting stronger or that I’ve just become numb to the whole situation in that aspect. Let’s hope for the former. Oh and it’s like 6F with the windchill right now. BRRRR. 35mph winds. I am NOT going outside for quite a bit.

I need to blog about these games, I swear they’re so addicting. They are things like Diner Dash (all 4 of them), Sally’s Salon, Pet Paradise, and Wedding Dash. Very similar in play style BUT the little differences make them each different and interesting. I’ve been playing them the past few days for HOURS on end… I’ll have them all beat soon enough knowing me. I’m lifeless of course. You can google any of those to get a trial and if you WANT you can IM me and I’ll help you get a little more time to play (Say unlimited?) AIM: silvergirl0007 as always, or you can just IM me to chat. That works as well.

I did have to go next door and help mom try to get the neighbors satellite working and ugh… dirty. We live in a house split into 3 apartments and I just.. don’t know how some people live that way. Our section is FAR from ideal…. we’d love if we could do something ourselves but financially it’s not feasible. It’s still not like that though. Maybe one day mom will win the lottery and we can dream of moving somewhere warmer…. and I can see visions of
South Carolina land for sale where we can build a house and leave this place.

Hey, I can dream RIGHT?

My heart hurts today. I feel lonely and depressed but not that cry into your pillow kind. The letdown I’m going to have a long ass road ahead of me kind that nags along every single day. It’s like… can life just cut us a break ONCE in awhile?

We went from being 2 1/2 hours away with a phone call every weekday and letters every other day at LEAST to him (and visits anytime we wanted but only once a week for $$ purposes) being 1 1/2 hours away, one phone call every other week, and the visit every other week. The killer here? I haven’t received a single letter since Thursday and this was mailed when he left Elmira already.

I just wonder… is it worth it to write and write and write with no response back? He told me Saturday he gets 5 envelopes and paper every week until he’s in a platoon and I haven’t seen anything from him yet. It stings a bit to open that mailbox and see nothing because letters are our only form of communication. Makes me think… maybe I should just base it all on that once every 2 week visit because I feel so one sided here and it’s not working out.

I know this probably isn’t in his control being that they are in a military like facility and have just about every minute of every day booked up… it still hurts me though.

On a hopefully good note.. provided he’s not off in no man’s land by Saturday.. I’ll be seeing him in approximately 66 hours. *sigh* C’mon Saturday.. I’ve been fine the past few days. I need you right now.

I wish I could just do something to ease up and have fun a bit… like yesterday we went around browsing stores, had lunch, etc… At least tomorrow I’ll get out a bit but it’s not like I’m doing anything interesting such as Mizuno golf. I don’t think I could do that either.. I’m more of a putt-putt fan to be honest with you. I always sucked at serious competition, especially in the area of golf.

I shower every other day for two reasons. One, my skin is naturally dry and being that it’s winter right now and my water is VERY hard (think sulphuric and smells like rotten eggs) I’d like to avoid drying it out anymore. Also, every time I shower I wash my hair. If it gets wet and I don’t wash it, I’ve got a rat’s nest up there.

I’ve recently heard about this different kind of spray powdershampoo which can be used in between washings while on the go. I had to stop for a minute and go “What?!”. Apparently this can be used to make your hair smooth and shiny in an instant. They also sell it based on the shade of your hair from black, to brown, to blond.

It sounds like a really neat product that I’d be willing to try out. I am a bit apprehensive but you never know when you gotta go and don’t have time to hop in the shower but want to make your hair look like you just did. A good example of this would be like when I’ve just got up and my mom asks me to go to town with her and I’ve got 5 minutes to be ready. Having a bottle around would be rather useful or if I’ve got to get up really early like at 5:45am to see Randy and again, want to get the most sleep. If I had this I could skip the shower that morning and just use this dry shampoo instead. It’s priced decently as well. $8/bottle and right now I pay about $7/bottle for my shampoo and conditioner alone. Not to mention it would probably last quite a while, considering it’s meant to be used in those little emergency situations.