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What did the girl oyster say to the boy oyster?

“You never open up to me.”

Corny eh? A lot of jokes are. What do you and your family eat a lot of for meals? We eat a lot of chicken, steak, and hamburger with sides consisting of vegetables along with a type of rice or potato. Nothing too extravagant. Occasionally we might have fish fillets or something with tuna in it but otherwise we never eat any other type of fish or seafood. It’s just never been appealing and we generally eat what my brothers and I like. Dad eats… well anything. He’s a human garbage disposal and I’m sure he’d eat Gulf oysters if they were presented in front of him. I’d certainly hope that he knows how to cook them fully to avoid getting any illnesses. You have to be wary of this whenever you prepare anything though, not just oysters.

I’m on edge and I need a way to top it out because if I don’t I’m afraid of what I will end up doing. I’m going to snap and I’m not sure how but it won’t be good. I feel so down and out about myself lately, like a complete and utter failure in everything I’ve done in the past or attempt to do now. It’s killing me and I’m taking it out on everybody because I can’t deal with this. I need to have a purpose, I need to have a center area of focus to make myself feel like I’m living a productive and useful life and lately it feels like I’m doing absolutely NOTHING good for anybody at all. It’s driving me nuts… bringing me to the edge… and I have GOT to figure out how to get up and over it before I resort to SI again. It’s been 3 months since I have. I’d like to keep that streak going. I’m working on pursuing something but that isn’t going to be announced until it’s a guarantee. I don’t want to get my hopes up before it happens. *sigh*

I wish I had counseling this week. It needs to be the 17th of April already too, I need to see that doctor and get put on some meds to help me deal with all of this. I’m not doing too well handling it all by myself. I’ve been working on my canvasing and finished my heart, I need to do the front/back of the bears and then maybe I’ll work on something more difficult like babydolls or Christmas scenes.

I was also tagged with a meme. (more…)

I KNOW I’m not the only one who celebrates monthly anniversaries. Randy and I acknowledge every single one of them. Saturday is going to be our 15 months, woo. I can’t wait until we get to 22 months. That means we’ve surpassed my longest relationship. Not that it matters of course considering I told him that he’s stuck with me for life We don’t really do anything special but acknowledge them but I’m in a very loving mood right now so I think I’m going to go write a letter to him… not sure what it’s going to say but I know it’s going to be very mushy and lovey-dovey.

If everything goes as planned his divorce will be finalized while he’s in there (papers have been filled out and mailed *SCORE*) and if he makes his merit board which we find out in July, he’ll be coming home November 29th, 2008. If he got home in July we were going to do an October wedding but with the circumstances changing we’re going to do May or June since we want it outside. As for honeymoon locations… well we’re quite limited being that he’s not allowed to leave the state to take any caribbean cruises or anything like that BUT if he gets a nice parole officer we might be able to take 3-5 days and go to Parrotsville, TN to the cabins mom and I stayed at. We could go horseback riding, mountain biking, visit Gatlinburg, and hey… maybe go white water rafting? We’ll see. If we don’t go for our honeymoon we’ll go on an anniversary. Only time will tell.

Do you and your S/O acknowledge the months you’ve been together?