1…2…3… shut the door
I mentioned either yesterday or the day before that I was on the verge of snapping. It’s getting worse.. and worse. I’m frustrated that I sought out mental health in December and they required me to be in counseling a month and it took a month before I even got assigned… and here it is March 20th and I won’t be on anything until April. I’m going to FLIP OUT. Everything is getting to me.
Randy calling everyday while I’m not home when he KNOWS i’m gone… for god knows what reason, questions about my future in relation to education, lack of having a job, and my brothers in the other room playing their new PS3 game Call of Duty 4 with the sound turned way up loud. I’m sure if we stuck a plasma tv mount and a plasma tv upstairs in their room then they’d go back up there and give us some peace and quiet.
I snapped on Randy earlier… I’m going to flip out and I need to find something, anything to combat this. *head slams into desk* Oh… and I’m 2 days late on my period. Lovely, right?







March 20th, 2008 at 6:46 pm
I’m sorry you’re going through a rough patch, I can’t imagine how difficult it must be for you two to have to deal with this situation.
I can’t offer you any advice, since I’ve never been there, but I’m definitely thinking of you.
March 21st, 2008 at 2:21 pm
Have you tried telling Randy lately to…well back off some? Trust is going to be an issue, whether you’ve talked about certain things or not, just because of where he is at but at the same time - HE has to realize that hey I’m on the inside and she’s on the outside and she HAS to keep living her life for her.
That is the one thing that I had the most trouble trying to get my ex to understand. Because even though we hadn’t been dating for some years when he got locked up, it’s like he still expected me to be there at every turn. And I’m like dude, we’re friends and I care about you which is why I’m here but I still have to live my life for me…that isn’t my fault because you made the decisions you made. It doesnt mean you love Randy any less or care any less, but YOU HAVE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU!!
If you ever want to talk, feel free to email me