It seems hopeless
Sometimes… well all the time money seems hopeless. It’s like, I owe the world money and I can’t even pay it back. It’s all about prioritizing what is most important but then again I have a question of what IS important? Is it paying $100/month to talk to Randy, paying mom back $558 for the collect calls for last month, paying back my $6,000 student loan, or paying the couple thousand in back credit card debts? Luckily I don’t have any here and now expenses besides visiting Randy because mom covers everything else. I have to put that on the back burner to pay debts and I feel like I’m being irresponsible if I skip that back payment to go and see him but at the same time how can I skip the visit?
Sometimes the one person who completes you is worth all of it and I think it’s going to have to stay that way. I can’t just do it. I cannot tell that person money and credit comes before you. The credit can be repaired, money can be earned, but these 7 months aren’t going to come back. Time keeps passing and I need to live in the here and now. That includes him in the budget.
Problem solved in 5 minutes of writing.
April 30th, 2008 at 9:12 pm
I agree. Toooooo many people let finances get in the way of living their lives. When my ex’s grandma died, his father was SO CHEAP that he would not buy a ticket for him to go to the funeral. His parents are well-off, mind you. Talked about fucked-up priorities.
When my grandpa died, the world stopped for me. School stopped, my job stopped, my life stopped, and I was given three days to remember a great man. It’s important in life to stop caring about the fact that we spent thousands of dollars on plane tickets. Love and people are so much more important than that.
Not comparing funerals to Randy of course, lol! But it’s true. This summer I’m going to France to visit Corey, and I’ll incur some debt doing so. But it’s important to me because it’s someone I love, and it’s worth going to the ends of the earth for.
April 30th, 2008 at 9:39 pm
Sadly i am one of those people who are trying to pay off the ‘world’ and I do let it get in the way of living my life to the fullest. From working too excessively. This entry came too late for me cause Now im getting extreme headaches and of course the doc says its because of stress.. ahh.. **exhales**
May 1st, 2008 at 3:52 pm
Unfortunately, that is the way I am. The thing is, I ended up saying that I needed to get a couch more than I needed to get my bills paid off. Now that my couch is about to be paid off, I plan on starting to get some of those bills taken care of.
Sometimes though, you really do have to stop and look at everything and decide what is more important for you to deal with at the time.
May 2nd, 2008 at 12:59 am
$558 per month in collect calls? Manda, I know that it’s important for you and Randy to keep in touch, but can’t you cut back just a bit on the calls? Limit to just one per day. Two at the most? Look at it this way: if you dig yourself a huge hole now over things that CAN be cut back on, how will you get out of it later, when Randy is out and you two can be together and start your lives together? :/