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Sometimes… well all the time money seems hopeless. It’s like, I owe the world money and I can’t even pay it back. It’s all about prioritizing what is most important but then again I have a question of what IS important? Is it paying $100/month to talk to Randy, paying mom back $558 for the collect calls for last month, paying back my $6,000 student loan, or paying the couple thousand in back credit card debts? Luckily I don’t have any here and now expenses besides visiting Randy because mom covers everything else. I have to put that on the back burner to pay debts and I feel like I’m being irresponsible if I skip that back payment to go and see him but at the same time how can I skip the visit?

Sometimes the one person who completes you is worth all of it and I think it’s going to have to stay that way. I can’t just do it. I cannot tell that person money and credit comes before you. The credit can be repaired, money can be earned, but these 7 months aren’t going to come back. Time keeps passing and I need to live in the here and now. That includes him in the budget.

Problem solved in 5 minutes of writing.

Randy called me tonight and told me that he got a black eye last night in the game room. He was playing monopoly with someone and these two guys got into it. The one guy went to punch the other and before Randy could duck out he got punched in the eye. I guess the other guy was about to pull a razor blade out on the other. Thankfully it was nothing more than that and obviously Randy isn’t in trouble. He said he was going to swing back at him but he thought of me because fighting = automatic box time of 90 days which is 23 hours of solitary confinement with no visits, calls, nothing. You’re let out for an hour of sunlight and to shower. Nothing more. Those two are in there but.. *shudder*

To me he’s not in prison, it’s not reality. I don’t see prison like they depict it on TV with shackles and cuffs. I think of it as another world. I’ve been to it so many times it seems regular to see guards and have to be buzzed through gates, get UV light stamps, and get past the metal detector. It’s normal to get assigned a table, show my ID 3 different times, and be watched like a hawk when showing any affection. That yellow line the inmates can’t cross is just a fact of life. Them not being able to hold money or roam around. The separate bathrooms for inmates and visitors. Watching them all line up at the end to walk back into the “yard” area but not before they get strip searched to ensure nothing was smuggled in. It’s all…. normal to me now. No packages over 35lbs, don’t wear an underwire bra, and no money over $50 but prepared to have 1/2 of it taken for fines and fees. Oh, and $.25/hour is a good job in there.

This is all too real for me and it’s somewhere I never thought I’d be but I’d do it all over again if it meant standing beside him because I know he can’t do this alone. He needs me and I need him.

I worked today for 4 hours, do 4 hours on Thursday, and then work 11-7 Friday and Saturday nights. Not bad. I can’t wait to have a regular paycheck coming in.

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this here yet but I signed up for social spark about a week and a half maybe 2 weeks ago? I can’t quite recall. I did it because being that I’ve been out of work since November I was looking for every opportunity I could find to make money at home. Even though I did get a job and actually have to work today I find it’s easy to continue to participate in sites such as social spark because I can do the work around MY schedule. No set hours and deadlines are quite generous so that I don’t feel pressured to get work done and have to crunch it all in.

Social spark is now here and live and no longer requires an invite to join. So all you have to do is provide your email and blog address to get started. SocialSpark is an easy method for any blogger to make money whether they use it as a primary source of income, a secondary to their significant other, or even just as an extra job to earn some spending or play money. It has a big difference from many other companies too because they do “in post disclosure” which reveals that yes, the post is sponsored. Many have not begun this because they feel they are cheating their readers but this way they’re not. The readers KNOW that the post is sponsored but it doesn’t take the value down as long as the blogger is honest and forward. The links also utilize rel=nofollow which make them search engine friendly unlike many other companies. Social spark is fresh and new so why not get involved yourself? If you’re not sure if you qualify just submit your blog, read the FAQs, and if you’re denied don’t worry. Make the required changes and you’ll be in and ready to go!

The interface is also very aesthetically pleasing and easy to navigate with everything being labeled. I’m definitely excited for it to expand and become more widely known and used. I really think the fact that it’s not based on PR but on REAL stats is the best thing of all. Blogs that got hit down by Google no longer have to worry about that small thing of PR.

We’ve got a few people possibly coming out today for the puppies. You wouldn’t believe how crazy it is around here with 8 little rascals fighting, whining, eating, and just being little rascals. We’ve determined they also like to bite peoples’ toes. Silly little things they are. I really am going to miss them but the peace and quiet will be restored and Mr. Shadow will be quite happy. He doesn’t like them very much, I think he’s actually threatened. It’s silly, they’re like 1/10th his size.

Babies have been on my mind lately with Dillion stuff all the time and even just.. in general. That’s no surprise though. I always find myself going into the baby section in stores and looking at baby clothes and other stuff. Especially since my weekend in Maryland with a newborn. If anything it made me want the future to jump closer so that Randy and I can start trying. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t ecstatic at the prospect of it.