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I’m currently sitting at this desk and freezing. Yes, it’s 56F out and that’s not really cold but it’s a tad bit chilly I’d say. The problem is that the window doesn’t go down all the way and I honestly couldn’t tell you why. 80% of the windows in this house are ancient and don’t have screens on them and the frames are just old looking. We could definitely use a remodel but since we don’t rent or own (included with dad’s job) we don’t feel we should spend the money to do so. It’s not OUR house you know? I think we need to get the plastic off of all of the windows though since i think it’s safe to say winter is over. Maybe if we could get dad’s boss to pay for it we’d replace the windows and maybe get some nice shades to go along with them.

It seems like I just put this layout up semi recently buuut I’m getting bored of it already. I love the sidebar because I’m a sidebar fan and I like the room I have and the header is nice but it’s a little too dark for the season. Spring is turning into summer and I need to find something that strikes me as light and airy but not too girly. I think I’m going to do some googling to find out my options or look into some other designs of peoples’ layouts I’ve used before. I sound like I’m a detective here in search of the big bad layout fairy who should be coming to deliver me some goodies. Sorry, I’m silly tonight. *goes back to jamming out to some sixx am*

Being in school I saw many fundraisers for various things like class activities or sports events. It wasn’t unfamiliar to see class of 2005 this or that when I was graduating. It takes quite a bit of money to carry out things for that many people, whether it’s a team of 20-30 people or a class of 120. I’ve seen people do bake sales, those bracelets like the yellow ones they did for Armstrong, and another good idea is to do custom car magnets so that parents and students alike can show their support for their organization of choice. I miss being in school sometimes and regret not being involved in as many activities as I could’ve been in. I pretty much stuck myself in a shell and let everything pass me by.

Well it looks like Splash Lagoon has been thrown out the window for the time being. Financially it doesn’t appear to be in the cards for anyone. I guess their new plans are to go after everyone gets their stimulus checks so it’s not such a bank breaker. I just hope we get to go, whenever that may be. It looks so cool and I’d like to just get away for a weekend (or just 1 night, whatever it is). I just hope the 4 kids aren’t too disappointed now that it’s been delayed until the end of June or beginning of July. We’ll see I guess. I did buy a swimsuit this past week though but I guess even if we don’t go it will come in handy soon enough. The weather actually got up to 70 today although the forecast is still showing 60’s and 50’s all week long. Pfft, go away cold weather!

Well, on the same note as my previous post about emotions and feelings I talked to Randy again. He won’t give me my time alone, he wants/needs to talk to me everyday he says and it’s because he’s afraid that I’m going to end up leaving him or something like that. He is the most insecure person I’ve ever been with, I swear. He keeps saying he needs to see me and I really want to see him too. I have to work this weekend definitely and as far as I know next weekend as well since it’s Memorial Day. I honestly don’t know when I’m going to be able to see him. Before it was an issue that actually had me considering the many Payday Loans that are available. Now that I have the money? It’s an issue of working because I can’t go right after work. I’d end up falling asleep after driving. Knowing me though I’d push myself to go if it turned into that. This is entirely too long to go without seeing him. AND I DON’T LIKE IT [/end childish ranting]