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My anxiety is on overload lately. These past two days actually. It’s driving me through the roof. I feel like I’m going to throw up at any given moment. I can’t sit still, I’m constantly worried for no reason over absolutely NOTHING. I just.. I don’t know. I had an emotional breakdown on the phone last night to Randy because he is the only one I can talk to who can understand because he knows me to a T and I think not talking to him recently contributed to that a bit. Hopefully it subsides a bit. I have to work tonight all the way up until Sunday night so maybe getting back into a schedule like that will ease things up a bit? All I know is that nothing I do is helping and it’s driving me bonkers. It’s also impacting my appetite which isn’t that shocking but I’ll end up losing weight without the assistance of weight loss pills if this keeps up. I’ve lost 7 lbs and kept it off since he’s left. Not a huge feat but I’m not really trying either.

Then a slip up in my bank account over 91 cents is causing me to be over drafted for $35 is on my nerves. L-A-M-E indeed. Besides that small factor I’ve been engaging in a lot of retail therapy. This past week I bought 4 shirts and I just got a cargo khaki skirt and pair of venezia jeans on ebay. I’m watching a few more auctions as well. Shopping has appealed to me a lot lately. I can’t pinpoint why but it has. I need a few more pair of pants and then I’ll be set for the winter. Oh yeah, I could stand to buy a few more bras too. I see that LB is having a buy one get one 1/2 off sale. I should take advantage of it.

I think i’ll go attempt to entertain myself a bit more doing… well, god knows what. We are now at 136 days though. He has parole in less than a week. *pukes*