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Haha, I spoke too soon I see. Carrie now messaged me saying that she and her bf don’t feel Dillion should be “put through that” and if Randy wants to see him he can wait until he gets out and “Keeps his ass out of trouble”. Whatever. I’m sick of these childish games. If that’s what she wanted why the heck did she message me last night AND talk to me on the phone all cooperative and all about this idea. Again, whatever. I don’t have time for this crap. She has CPS watching her right now… let’s just hope she mucks up somewhere along the lines and Randy’s papers to get custody end up with us coming out on top of this and he can get custody. She’s a wackjob.

That, on top of drama involving John…. is bringing me to the breaking point. I feel like I’m going to puke, cry, and scream all at the same time. I think soon enough I’m gonna go write a letter and bawl my eyes out while I do. Listen to music while doing it… hope I can fall asleep early tonight so I can wake up tomorrow morning with his phone call. *sigh* I talked to Heather a bit tonight, it made me feel better. We caught up on a few things, talked shit over, we’re doing good. She mentioned that the holiday inn is hiring for like 4-5 different housekeepers that they want to get trained before the summer season starts. So I’m going to head over and apply there on Monday most likely. Wish me luck on that. Afterall, it’s not like I have the skills to get business funding and apply it towards something big. Yet. Maybe once I graduate from college and my life settles down a bit in the craziness area.

We live in the age of credit, this age has been here for awhile but now it’s considered odd to carry cash while when I was a child it was different for people to have credit cards. Debit and credit are pretty much required everywhere you go from booking hotel rooms to even renting video games. I personally have 5 different credit cards plus a debit card and have obtained a car loan on my own before. Credit is something you don’t want to mess with because it can be the difference of thousands of dollars you pay because of horrible interest rates for individuals with low credit or phenomenal (0% anybody) for those spectacular individuals.

I get my credit report every 4 months, since all 3 of the credit agencies have to give out 1 per year to individuals. I space mine out to keep a steady eye on mine. It’s important to do so and maybe people use services such as lifelock to monitor their credit AND protect themselves from identity theft because if this occurs, expect a huge stressor in your life and lots of money and time will be lost in the process. I ought to follow suit and enroll, better safe than sorry.

Well quite a few things have been happening lately. Let’s do a bullet list, nice and simple.

• He’s been moved to Summit, it’s 240 miles away. Very negative for us but positive because he’s got a release date. July 31st and he’ll be home for his birthday August 1st! I’m going to try to get out there once a month. It’s about $65 for gas and if I decide, I found hotels for $82/night which sucks. I wish I could find something cheaper. Knowing me, I’d just drive the 4 hours, visit, and drive back because I can’t fathom spending that much.
• Mom gave me $297 since it was supposed to be $250 BUT she ended up spending more on my brother’s ps3 (extra game, extra controller). I think she spent something like $640 on them combined. I also bought 4 pair of undies and some new socks while at wal-mart. She got herself a $700 laptop. (She deserves it, she rarely buys things for herself)
• With that money I bought myself a
  ZOTAC GeForce 8600GT 256MB 128-bit GDDR3 PCI Express x16 HDCP Ready SLI Video Card

  AMD Athlon 64 X2 4400+ Brisbane 2.3GHz Socket AM2 65W Dual-Core Processor

  PHILIPS 20X DVD±R DVD Burner 2-Tone SATA

  A-DATA 2GB (2 x 1GB) 240-Pin DDR2 SDRAM DDR2 800 (PC2 6400) Desktop Memory .
  I also bought my brother an 8400 video card b/c he told me if i do he’ll give me my laptop back. He gets a computer back (Randys), I get my laptop back, and Randy will have my current one AND my new one gets finished. We all win

• Um, so otherwise I’m doing alright. Still don’t have a job but submitted my resume to the hospital so maybe I’ll get a call back. They’re hiring like crazy from their website I noticed. Cross your fingers for me!
• I’m getting $450 back in taxes this year, that’s 3 visits to see him if I do hotels. So I’ve got march, april, and May covered. 2 more! Oh, and if I don’t get a hotel room then it’ll be March, april, may, june, july, and 2 extras if I decide to splurge like do a feb and then double one month… so maybe we’ll get to see each other afterall. PLUS i’ve been doing occasional paid blogging so… we’ll make it just fine

I’m really bored lately too, if I don’t actively read your blog leave me a link. I’ll add you and most likely comment on just about every entry. I’m lovely like that.

I’ve been home for 10 hours and for about 9 of those I wished I was back in the hospital because this recovery crap is ROUGH. Getting on and off the couch is insane, moving around to get this or that for myself is a pain, and my back is so sore from the positions I’m laying/sitting in. I can’t get comfortable and Darvocet shouldn’t be classified as a Narcotic because it’s doing absolutely nothing at ALL for me. *angry face* Maybe a bit of drowsiness for 10 minutes. My staples feel really weird and I have numb spots all over my stomach with absolutely NO feeling… it’s weird.

Randy still knows NOTHING about this. He knew I was going to the hospital Monday and hasn’t been able to call since.. hopefully he calls soon so I can give him a quick summary and I’m also hoping Randy’s mom doesn’t bail on me this weekend b/c I can’t drive. No ifs/ands/buts about that and mom won’t take me. I’m not sure the guards will let me go in though, I need to call and make sure b/c obviously staples aren’t going to pass a metal detector.

My parents just got their tax returns done tonight and needless to say, they’re pretty happy with the $5,200 that they got. I can’t complain, I’m getting to finish my computer and get contacts *Finally* and my brothers are getting a PS3. She’s also buying herself a laptop and dad wants some new tools/gloves and stuff for work. She might look into getting him a new watch, perhaps an AP offshore would be appreciated? Then again he might ruin it at work.

Well mom and I took the car to get looked at today and well… let’s say we’re a little less than pleased at the price. She needs the back brakes replaced, the front suspension needs work including the tierod, alignment, etc… Overall the cost of this is going to be $918 to get everything back in order. After that she also needs her NYS inspection before the 31st AND 2 back tires to be purchased, mounted, and balanced. There goes the tax return… seems like every year the car needs major work around this time. :’( At least we can look on the bright side that she IS getting a return of close to or over $5k so we can afford it but it’s still kinda shoddy. She was going to spend some on herself (which she doesn’t do very often) and splurge on a laptop. I hope she can still swing it, she needs her own computer.

On a different note we hit up dollar general after that and got 4 boxes of glass Christmas bulbs (green, red, silver, gold) marked for $5/each but 75% off made them $1.25/each and you can’t beat that. We also got Christmas cards for $.50. We’ve been stocking up for next year.

Less than 4 more days until I’m back with his arms around me… specifically 86 hours give or take an hour for processing Wahooooooo, I cannot WAIT. Otherwise I’m doing great emotionally. I miss him but i’m still coming into accepting it. One day at a time, one step at a time.