Well, well, where do I start? I have a feeling once I do I’m going to get interrupted with a phone call. More on that in a moment though. I went to see Randy on Saturday like previously stated and it was a typical long 2 1/2 hr drive there and back but no bad weather thankfully. During the visit this one CO decided to be a complete pricksmack and seriously write tickets to at least 15 inmates for “violations”, Randy included because OMG HE HAD HIS ARM AROUND MY SHOULDER! Last Sunday we were snuggling up and he was rubbing my back the entire visit. He wasn’t even warned either. Our topic of conversation was our status and trust and a lot more other things regarding “us”. Of course he had his usual prison bitchings including lack of privacy, being moved from one bunk to another as soon as he gets to know the guys, and getting yelled at for things like saying sir because in shock he was required to. He also likes to say that breathing in that recycled air which could benefit from the use of air cleaners is killing his lungs and he can’t wait to be out in some fresh environment. He also left me a little lovemark, which he got reamed out for at the very end with a “Someone is going to get their ass kicked for leaving a mark on their girlfriend’s neck, isn’t that right MR. RUMBLE?” “Yes sir”. The CO, before I left, asked me if I was OK and I said yeah why and he’s like it looks like someone just bit you. I looked at him, rolled my eyes, and walked in the other direction with a smirk on my face. *eyeroll* Let’s hope he isn’t there Sunday. His mom is going to try to come up w/ the money b/c I’m flat BROKE now. I can’t swing this one. :-\

As for “us”, we have completely cleared out the closet and every single skeleton has come out from last month to even things from last year. Trust is going to be VERY hard to re-build on his end because of what I revealed but we’re fully determined that we can work things out. It’s going to be a long hard road but… who said relationships are easy? I’ve completely cut off contact with anyone in the past who has caused any instability between us. Mainly John, Andrea, and Mike who threw a hissy fit saying Randy was keeping me in chains and might as well lock me in a padded cell since I’m not allowed to talk to any of them. It’s not allowance, it’s a choice. They cause problems, I value him more than that drama.

Things are a bit messy in regards to phone calls though. Every 30 minute call is $3.23 collect and he’s calling 4-7 times a DAY. Anyone wanna do that crazy math? Yeah, when the phone bill comes in we’re going to regret it. Also, he’s calling every 2-3 hours to check up and make sure I am where I say I am. It’s almost suffocating I’d say. I decided to go to walmart and mcdonald’s after his mom’s yesterday and I got reamed OUT when I got home at 8:30 instead of 7:30 when I said I should be home. That was a ballpark estimate, I’m not used to having curfews or revolving my life around when that phone is going to ring. *frustration* We’ll take it on though and deal as we have to. Only about 8 1/2 more months to deal with this crap.

He received a letter from DSS saying that there have been 2 complaints of child abuse filed for Dillion in the past 3 months and as the father they’re informing him, and he was “not named on either complaint”. Well, duh, he was incarcerated. So they’re doing an investigation and he’s going to write to them to possibly get custody turned over to his mother for the rest of his sentence. God, what a screwed up situation all around.

It seems like forever since I last blogged since I’m used to doing it just about daily. I’m thinking multiple posts will better suit since I don’t need to squash all topics into one post. I did end up going to see Randy on Saturday after drinking a bit on Friday. I only had 3 hours of sleep but hey, that’s life right?

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I enjoyed some of those too but my buzz died when my dad ruined it. Of course, his drinking always does. He doesn’t know moderation. Otherwise we had a lot of fun celebrating my aunt’s birthday party. I also drank a couple daquaris in there but nothing excessive to make me feel it too much. Maybe I will sometime in the near future. Or I’ll wait until Randy comes home, haha. He can’t drink but he said he wants to watch me get drunk sometime because I’m quite the life of the party provided I don’t wake up covered in anything icky .. and my clothes stay on. They’ve been known to come off in the past. *woops*

I did get to sleep in my new bed and enjoy all the newness of it. I’m loving it. Of course I could always think of something to make my room even more comfortable, perhaps a massage chair is in order sometime soon? It’s a lot easier to get in/out of it and Shadow started sleeping with me again so my bed isn’t as empty. I missed my shad man keeping me company! He’s nice and warm too.

Visit and relationship stuff to be detailed in another entry, possibly tonight. Not sure yet, I need to figure out a way to put it all into words because in my mind it’s ALL over the place. Bah!

Holy macro I’m exhausted but SO fulfilled and happy right now. I went to my visit, I shouldn’t have though. The weather was horrid. Blowing, drifting, and the road to get to pick his mom up had over 8 inches of snow on it and was NOT plowed. I got stuck a few times but… I’m a NYer. I can get through anything, bring it on mother nature. I left here at 5:30, got to her house (7 miles away) at 6:00. We got on the thruway, it was messy at first but we got about 30 miles in and it cleared up. Then about 20 miles to the destination, shitty conditions again. It took us nearly 3 hours to get there and we waited from about 9:00-9:45 to get into visit him. The trip is 157 miles one way.

I love this facility. It’s a medium security and the guards were actually friendly! I was shocked. The visiting was one big room with lots of vending machines and they do pictures at this facility. Randy and I got two done (one with his mother) and I’ve got them uploaded to flickr. I’ll put them at the end of the entry too. I must say he can rock anything, even those lame NYS prison green jumpsuits. Whew baby! He was so happy, I was happy. It was a GREAT visit. We also got to kiss and touch a lot, because the guards aren’t breathing down your throats. He’s calling me in 8 minutes or so, I miss him already. We’ve determined whether or not he’s kicked out of shock, things will work out and i’m feeling better about the situation.

Dianna and I left at 3 and we got into town at 5:20. We stopped at walmart so I could copy the 2 pics for her, pick up some pop, and I got my knitting supplies! (Also at the end of the entry). Then we stopped at Mcdonald’s and finally I took her home and she showed me how they tore out a few walls, painted a couple rooms, and she explained what else she intends on doing to the place. She mentioned getting a new TV as well, maybe she’ll get one that might require use of one of the well known tv lift cabinets. Who knows?

Then I finally headed home. I dealt with snow and had to plow through my driveway through a foot of snow due to a drift and now I’m here. I have a full belly, am exhausted, but oh boy do I feel high on life and I’m LOVING it.

His mom, him, and I. She NEVER smiles for pics

I hate how my body looks here but.. hey you take what you can get.

My knitting supplies. I can’t wait to get started!
I love my inmate today, tomorrow, and always. Nothing will ever change that.

I was so fired up in the last post that I completely forgot to mention that mom took me to get my lip pierced today. I got it a bit higher than I did my labret so I can wear either a lip ring or a labret stud (Because Randy hates lip rings when I kiss him). I love it. It’s a bit sore, hurt just a tad bit but what do you expect when a needle goes through flesh? Of course, here are a couple pictures of it. When it heals up a bit I’m going to buy a labret stud and I’m also going to get a CBR instead of the horseshoe style ring I have in right now. Overall I’m quite satisfied though. Next on the list? Re-doing my eyebrow. Maybe double them up. I love piercings. It seems like I’ve been having a lot of change lately in life. Re-doing my room, getting piercings, Randy getting moved. One thing I DO still want to do is lose weight without the assistance of any gimmicks like weight loss pills because we all know diet and a exercise combined together for a healthy lifestyle are the only way to get results. more…

I haven’t had too much to write lately because life has been relatively boring. We went from 60F on Monday to a total ice storm last night. Bah! It was so cold in here that I had 3 blankets on me and a space heater blowing on my feet. Now it’s hot in here, never a comfortable medium ever. I braved the wind today to go get the mail and of course it was worth it, I got a letter! His letters always put a smile on my face. He gave me a quiz to do, as a mini “about me” and he even included a picture that he traced out. It fits the situation, I scanned it into the computer. It’s not perfect but very thoughtful and cute. I also have a picture of the ice on our porch last night (It lasted 6 hours!) I think I need to take a few new pics of myself but I’ve been thinking constantly about different methods on how to lose weight and have read a couple like the programs such as weight watchers or nutrisystem but don’t know what path I’m going to take as of yet. I do know that I’m not happy with the way that I look even if a certain someone seems to think that I’m “perfect”. Pff, far from.

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