One thing that I look at whenever I’m in either kmart or walmart is treadmills or home gyms because I’ve wanted one for god knows how long. I could afford one too if I really wanted it but it’s kind of hard when there’s no room in the house to store it. I wish our garage was in better shape. We have a concrete floor but the door is broken on 2 of the bays since it’s a 3 bay garage with an attached barn in the bank. There would be plenty of room for that plus any other exercise equipment that I wanted. Maybe when I move out I’ll finally get one.

I’ve made a decision regarding my self image. For the time being, I’m not going to actively put an effort towards doing anything. I’m going to just live without over indulging and see what happens. Once Randy comes home and I have a strong support system (And we get out of this house where temptation is in my face 24/7) I will begin modifying everything to lose weight without the use of gimmicks like fat burners. Just diet modification and exercise of course. Once I reach my goal weight of 225 I’m going to splurge and buy a season pass to cedar point. Since it costs $72 to go to both the water park and theme park for 1 day. I want to go for a 2 night 3 day visit since there is SO much to go on. The season pass is only $150 so it’ll be worth it. I want to lose weight first because some of the restraints will not fit on bigger people like myself. I wasn’t able to go on the superman even though I could fit the seat belt around me and in the seat because the way they’re built. The last time I went on the superman I believe I was somewhere around 245. So I know I won’t have an issue because I’ve also gained 2 inches in height since then. Randy and I will go on a weekend getaway sometime. I’m excited at the thought of it but I’ve got to achieve the goal first.

This weather lately has been absolute crap. Somewhat warm but dreary and blah, it doesn’t make my mood all that great. Its going to be warmer in the next few days but nothing is really going on that is all too fun. A bright side lately is that I dropped another 3 pounds and am now 8 pounds lighter than I was when I began my meds. This is largely in part to eating a lot less. Whatever works though. My body itself feels a bit healthier due to eating less and healthier. I’ve also heard that getting a colon cleanse can also make a whole world of difference on your body and overall health.

My weight has been fluctuating like crazy lately. Since I’ve started my medication my appetite has taken a dive. I never want to eat. I either feel hungry and want to eat but the thought of food nauseates me. It’s a pain because food SOUNDS good until I get close to eating. I’ve lost like 6 lbs in a week and a half. I won’t complain because I certainly could use it. I know some people use diet pills like Alli but that really doesn’t help because you have diarrhea constantly and once you eat again it’s only going to do the same thing again. To lose weight you need to eat healthy and exercise or cut down on what you eat. Taking pills only help in the short term.

Next month is father’s day. Like I said, time is really speeding up. It’s also dad’s birthday next month as well. It’s not really a big deal honestly because birthdays get boring once you get older. I never know what to buy him because he doesn’t really do too much outside of work, reading his paper, and the occasional game of solitaire on the computer. I could maybe look into titanium rings but I’m not quite sure he’d wear one. He doesn’t even wear his wedding band but he could’ve lost that. Maybe I’ll just stick with getting him his favorite kind of food or something.