DIRECTIONS:
1. Go to your playlist.
2. Hit shuffle.
3. Choose the first twenty five songs - YOU CANNOT SKIP ONE. If it’s embarrassing you just have to live with it.
4. With those twenty five songs you must post a lyric from each of the songs.
5. See if anybody can guess what songs they are from. If they are guessed you can cross them out. Try to get rid of all of them.

1. “You and me together through the days and nights”

2.”You’re so obvious, you’re so oblivious”

3. “I’m lookin for a girl I can fuck in my hummer truck” Eminem - Shake that

4. “I give you my destiny. I’m giving you all of me” Mandy Moore - Only Hope

5. “She’s tryin to make it in her daddy’s world, an American girl” Trisha yearwood - X’s and Os

6. “When push comes to shove you taste what you’re made of” Rascall Flatts - Stand

7. “Promise me you’ll try to leave it all behind”

8. “Shine. It’s your moment to shine” Daughtry - There and back again

9. “All the thoughts lead back to you, back to what was never said”

10. “While you’re on the outside looking in describing what you see”

11. “I hope you’re not intending to be so condescending” Staind - Right here

12. “Back to the crib show you how I live”

13. “If I lay here if I just lay here” Snow Patrol - Chasing cars

14. “Even if you justify every fucking bullshit lie”

15. “Baby I don’t see it but you believe that I’m so strong and true”

16. “I told you everything opened up and let you in” Kelly Clarkson - Hazel Eyes

17. “I want it back more than you know I’d cross the line if you wanted it”

18. “Now I’m gonna have to find a way to take the knife out of my back and how could you leave me?”

19. “I’m hooked and I can’t stop starin’ oh baby I wanna get wit ya” Six Mix a lot - baby got back

20. “Were you ever there when she needed you?”

21. “We’ve become desolate it’s not enough it never is”

22. “I’m looking for the answers to why these questions never go away”

23. “Did I try in every way to show her everyday that she’s my only one?” Garth Brooks - If tomorrow never comes

24. “They hatin’ on me they hatin’ on me”

25. “I’ll let you whip me if I misbehave” Justin Timberlake - Sexy Back

1.2.3…. GO!

1. Name three things you wish you would have never loaned to anyone. Did you ever get them back? How did you get them back? If you never got them back, do you miss these items? Would you ever loan anything to this person (people) again? What’s the biggest thing you ever allowed someone to borrow?
I don’t think I’ve loaned anything, I usually borrow. Haha. I do return though. Maybe clothes

2. When is the last time you laughed so hard it hurt? And what was so funny about it? Tell us the story behind the joke, (if you can). Randy and I have an inside joke of “lettuce and tomatoes” to refer to something that is embarassing for either of us to talk about when other people might be in earshot. While a guard was standing there yesterday I said it and we both began laughing our asses off. We’re dorks.

3. What stresses you out? Are you stressed out often? What is your favorite stress-reliever? Tell us the last thing that stressed you out (if you can). Money stresses me out 100%, completely. It depends on how my frame of mind thinks. Usually I listen to music or read

4. Walk us through your Easter Sunday. What did you do? Where did you go? What was your favorite part about the holiday? Post your favorite picture. I woke up at 4:15 am and was out of the house by 5. I got to Mohawk at about 7:45 or so and sat waiting for my visit to start. I did plastic canvas while waiting, got into visit at 9:30 or so and visited until 3. Drove home and got home at 5:30 where I ate Easter dinner and lounged around online and with mom until 10. I fell asleep for 15 mins and randy called and woke me up. At 11 I went back to sleep until I got up this morning. My favorite part: Visiting my baby of course and spending a holiday together.

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I’m on edge and I need a way to top it out because if I don’t I’m afraid of what I will end up doing. I’m going to snap and I’m not sure how but it won’t be good. I feel so down and out about myself lately, like a complete and utter failure in everything I’ve done in the past or attempt to do now. It’s killing me and I’m taking it out on everybody because I can’t deal with this. I need to have a purpose, I need to have a center area of focus to make myself feel like I’m living a productive and useful life and lately it feels like I’m doing absolutely NOTHING good for anybody at all. It’s driving me nuts… bringing me to the edge… and I have GOT to figure out how to get up and over it before I resort to SI again. It’s been 3 months since I have. I’d like to keep that streak going. I’m working on pursuing something but that isn’t going to be announced until it’s a guarantee. I don’t want to get my hopes up before it happens. *sigh*

I wish I had counseling this week. It needs to be the 17th of April already too, I need to see that doctor and get put on some meds to help me deal with all of this. I’m not doing too well handling it all by myself. I’ve been working on my canvasing and finished my heart, I need to do the front/back of the bears and then maybe I’ll work on something more difficult like babydolls or Christmas scenes.

I was also tagged with a meme. more…

I don’t usually do the Saturday meme but I figured I’m up, why not? One of my favorite topics, sex of course.

1. Are you and your current lover (or most recent) always on the same page on sex?
For the most part we’re joined together for that one

2. If you had your way would you have sex more or less frequently?
More considering right now I’m not. When he’s HOME, still more frequently. My drive is extremely high

3. Have you ever been asked to do something sexually but refused?
Yes.

4. Have you ever asked a lover to do something sexually but they refused?
Nope

5. How long do you wait when meeting some new to have sex?
Um, not very. Mike was the first day, Randy the second.. you get the drift.

6. Have you ever engaged in a sexual act while driving an automobile?
Haha, yes.

7. Have you regretted having sex with someone?
Yes, one night stands.. all 3 of them

8. Are you and your current/most recent partner in the mood at the same time?
Usually. If not, I’m quite talented at getting him there

9. When was the last time you had sex?
Too long ago Last time it mattered was the last week of November actually

Now I’m off to sleep for the whole 2 hours I’m getting (Horrid timing for DST I must say). Then I’m hoping this weather doesn’t prohibit me from seeing him. I’m unstoppable when it comes to getting to my baby though so… eff the snow. I’ll make this trip. Off to dreamland I go, let’s hope I actually have a good dream instead of the nighmares I’ve been having. I imagine if I ended up dreaming of something like colon cleanser I’d consider that a nightmare. I want to dream of spring, summer, sunshine, and green grass. We’ll see how THAT one turns out.

Thanks to the lovely Reese I now have a new layout up. I was getting sick of the purple and black, well, not really but the black isn’t exactly light and airy like spring is. With the changing of the seasons I thought it was time for a new look. I don’t know how to get the flickr code though, if anyone could let me know how to do that I’d greatly appreciate it. Unless it’s a paid account only thing, in which case, I’m S.O.L.

Speaking of change, my mom has been talking about making changes to the house. I recently painted my bedroom and got a new bed set (I PROMISE pics are coming as soon as I get my new bed AND my wall of pictures done). She wants to paint and border her room, maybe get some different carpet, and we definitely need to get some new windows and doors. Ours are horrible for insulation and let SO much cold air in. Maybe when we get a new door we’ll go with Schlage doorhandles to spice up the look.