Thanks for all the comments yesterday everyone. I wasn’t aware that I had that many readers. :-p I mailed that letter out to Randy today so hopefully he’ll get it probably Friday if the mail is slow, Thursday if it decides to be speedy.

I’ve been dealing with horrid insomnia these past 2 days. I’ve been sleeping in 3-4 hour spurts every so often. Tossing and turning like it’s nobody’s business. I have a horrible headache from it. Ambien isn’t even working for me. I wish I could pinpoint what was wrong.

It’s October tomorrow. Hmm. Many people are like yay time is going by. I’m like BLAH it needs to be December plz? I’m definitely not looking forward to the cold weather though. It’s only 55 out and brrr. Very breezy and dark. Too dreary for my liking I must say. I only have 6 more days left of work before the season ends. It makes me sad. I’m going to miss my girls. I am proud of myself though. In 6 months I never called in, never was late, and I even worked extra shifts whenever I was asked.

Being that I’ve had massive boredom issues lately I scored a few projects on GAF and will probably work on them shortly. Once I complete them it’s another $60 i’ll have in my little savings fund which just topped $300. If I don’t have to get an apartment then I’ll probably use it towards a car since it’s kind of important to have one. Only $1700 more to go since I’m looking to spend about $2,000 max. I’ll get there eventually.

My nerves are still going haywire over this paternity test. Like I say, I wonder if baby clothes are in our future or not. I want to say he’s not the father but it’s always there in the back of my mind. It’s not going to change anything between us but it’s going to open a door that we really don’t want to venture to just yet. This 4-6 week thing is crap though. On Maury they can do it in 24 hours. Pfffft! The next court date is November 6th and he should get something in the mail before then but if he doesn’t then it will just be continued. I’m kind of looking forward to any court dates once he gets home. Maybe it’s just the fact that Carrie has never seen us together and I have this hatred for her because of her behavior. I want to be able to stroll in right next to him. This paternity is also important because once it’s determined his divorce can be finalized. Thankfully…

• @Kecia08 We’re doing better now. Just a minor insecurity deal. I want you tooo, we need to talk more. #
• I took an Ambien and holy high feeling #
• I slept from like 11 till 2am after I took an AMBIEN. WHATTTTTTT? I hate my body. Sleeping in 2-3 hour increments sucks. #
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  Little brother wrote a letter to Randy. Awww #

• Going to attempt sleep. #
• @sophistique I find studying hitler to be fascinating for some reason. Not that I agree with his ideas but history is interesting to me. #
• Playing ps2. It’s been awhile #
• I’m thinking it’s nap time. I’m dragging right now. Blagh. #
• I’m thinking it’s nap time. I’m dragging right now. Blagh. #

Ryan (my 11, soon to be 12) year old brother wrote Randy a letter today. It was … it brought tears to my eyes and I think it’s going to have a huge impact on him when he reads it. Here it goes.

Dear Randy,

How have you been big bro? How you been holding up? I’ve been good and excited that there is only 64 days left till you get out. I’ve been holding up good and remember that when Amanda ever does anything bad I’ll tell you (lol)When you get home we could hang out all the time and play video games. I can’t wait till you actually do get home. You can eat some of Amanda’s potato soup which is like incredible. We can spend Christmas together this year. I also colored a few halloween pictures for you. When you get home we can play black, NFS, crash, GH3, Blizzard games. We can play PS3, PS2, and gamecube. Next year we can hang out on each others’ birthdays. We can play football, volleyball, baseball, and other sports and go bike riding. I miss my brother. Also we can listen to Metallica. I did when I wrote this letter from “One” … and justice for all. I can’t wait to see you. It’s not that long away but it feels like you’ve been there forever. Hopefully you don’t do any other stupid things to lead you back to prison. All I know is that I miss you so much. I’ve gone almost a year without seeing my brother. All I’ve done is talk on the phone sometimes when Amanda isn’t home. Also Amanda doesn’t want me to go get you on Dec 1st so I’m not going when they come get you. I miss you so much.

Love,
Your little bro

Awwwwwwwww

• Ugh, work = NOOOOO. I’m so glad after today it’s 5 days of bliss. Well, 5 days of type type typing. #
• @plintwitta Use photoshop and do a process multiple files action. #
• I told my client about the stress with doing all 100 of those articles and she broke it down. I only need to do another 10. SO RELIEVED #
• I slept like 3 hours total. Wtf body. You are tired, I know you are. #
• Going to go get mountain dew. Mmm. #
• Global tel so owns my soul… #
• @kissmykitty lmao, lovely sight I’d imagine. #
• Mmm, mountain dew. Sunday with no work. No obligations. I feel lovely. Now randy, call ME. #
• Mm, that coffee soy candle makes my entire room smell so good. #
• I’m feeling way unwanted right now. It’s not a good feeling whatsoever. #
• I feel better now.. nice how simple convos can make it all fixed. #

The weather today is absolutely blagh. It’s like a rainy type of misting and it’s been doing it since before I got off work at 7am. I mean it can be alright if you like rain but I never have really enjoyed rain, except thunderstorms of course. Everyone is being absolutely lazy today, myself included. I have NO work sitting on my plate at the moment which kind of sucks since I did give up a $300 project but the stress level from it? Just not worth it. I have been way too down and out to focus on that stuff right now. So I’m doing smaller projects here and there to accumulate money. We’ll see how time goes.

My brother is playing Ps2 behind me, mom is on her comp playing bingo, my other brother is on his PS3, and my dad who is usually out in the garage tinkering stuff with the assistance of industrial clamps, is sleeping since he can’t quite do anything when the weather is like this.

On a sidenote, I did jump in puddles today in the parking lot at dollar general. I felt like such a little kid. It was awesome.