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Mike is still hanging around here. He’s going home today I think. We’ve spent almost a week straight together, good times good times. This girl that he is pursuing (liz) is supposed to come over later on today to hang out. I hope things work out well for him, he’s really into her. We’ve also determined that we can each lose the “ex” label. We’re friends. It’s nice not to call him my ex anymore, it’s got that negative feel to it you know?
Sunday was good. I spent $70 for gas, $14 for tolls, $8 for him to drink during the visit, and $11 for Mike and I to eat on the way back. So I spent $103 total. Bah. Maybe I’ll get lucky and gas will drop a bit before I visit again. Or not.. but I can dream right? Next trip my tolls are paid for and it will only be me eating since I’m going alone.
The visit went alright. He was a bit alarmed with Mike being there but we discussed things and we’re good. Him and I really are struggling right now though, the whole thing with John really took us for a dive. Now we’re trying to piece everything back together and it’s a struggle. We’re not gonna give up though, love is too strong to risk that crap.
I think I’m gonna get to work on that layout… sounds like a good idea to me. Something simple but colorful.

Let’s see if I can muster up an entry here to keep with the blog every day deal. I’ve been sleeping a lot lately but not on a normal schedule. I don’t like getting up at noon but it’s what I end up doing because I’m up late until 2-3am. Bah.

So far today has consisted of eating breakfast at noon, watching a soap opera, and killing time on the internet. I also showered and will be going with mom tonight to apply at the pizza place that is hiring which I saw in Friday’s daily news. Maybe I’ll get something. Anything is a job right now, money is my #1 stressor.

On the Randy front I’m doing pretty good. I think I’ve come to accept that he’s gone and not coming back anytime soon in my mind and I have to just deal with it. The visits every 2 weeks will be enough to keep us going. I just have to think of all those people who have military deployments and such and have to go months without seeing their loved ones. I have to go 2 weeks and I get 6 hours of time with him. Then he’ll be home for good you know?