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Well I made the trip yesterday and after 2 full tanks of gas and 5 hours of driving each way (YAY for snowstorms and spinning out not once, not twice, but 3 times and STILL managing to stay on the road) I made it back home.

I had to deal with jerky DI’s as always and finally at 9:45 the guys came in. Randy and I hugged quickly and sat down, he looked me in the eyes, and goes “You fucked him didn’t you?” before I even said a word. Needless to say we’re going to skip out on major details but he has been told AND he is going to forgive me for it. Last chance. I can’t see why.. I really can’t BUT he said he’s not sure either, he just feels he’s going to give me another chance because he loves me so much and believes we can really work it out. Obviously he’s hurt, betrayed, and disappointed in me but… we need to treat it as a learning experience and it is what it is.

As for Dillion, some good news. Lori (carrie’s mother) was taking him to court to get him to sign over custody. In those papers it said Carrie was emotionally and mentally unstable and that’s why. They revoked those papers and court was canceled but the damage is done, his counselor said they are extremely concerned for the welfare of the child. Randy mentioned that he wanted custody and to keep it short he is petitioning to grant parental rights of Dillion to me while he is in shock camp. Provided that everything goes through, Carrie doesn’t fight it (I don’t think they can support him in any way actually), and whatnot then I will have custody of Dillion. WE will have custody of Dillion. It’s a very strange and overwhelming thought but I do love him very much and I would do anything for him. This isn’t me doing it just because, I’d be doing it because it’s what I want too so I’ll update with any new info.

Last night I stayed at Andrea’s and had a lot of fun chilling out and relaxing, I wanna go back tonight but we’ll see. I needed to come home to check up on shit, change, etc.. because I never came home from the prison just went straight to her house. I <3 you girls! I might make a more updated entry/in depth about our visit but it will be passworded. We’ll see.

He’s been moved. He’s in a county jail overnight and tomorrow he goes to the lovely Summit shock incarceration facility a whopping 240 miles away! OMG YAY like my life is just so awesome and it’s just so great that my boyfriend is now going to talk to me a whole 20 minutes every MONTH. Oh, let’s add that the visits that are 6 hours would be every 2 weeks but I can’t just pick up and drive 240 miles one way every 2 weeks due to lack of a vehicle, lack of money, and the sheer fact that 240 miles is a LONG ass drive. *shoots self*

I really don’t know how I’m going to cope… I honestly don’t. I’m ready to snap right now. Once he leaves tomorrow morning I won’t hear from him until the 17th at the earliest unless that’s visiting weeks. Then I’ll have to wait till the 24th for a fucking 10 minute phone call that consists of hi I love you im alive kthx bye pretty much. Lovely lovely relationship we’re going to have until August. I know LDRs are hard but at least most people fucking talk to their significant others more than 20 minutes a month. Last time I checked communication is how relationships stay ALIVE.

Pardon me I’m ready to kill someone right now.